Letter to my baby.

So I went to the Psychologist today and my homework was to write my baby a letter. Obviously, If given the chance  I would have much much more to say to her, but this is the best I could come up with at the time.
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To my beautiful baby girl,

Oh sweet little Audrey I miss you so much. Although you were only with me for 2 years, the amount of joy you brought is enough to last my lifetime. The wonderful memories you gave me will carry me through whatever it is that comes my way. I wish for nothing more than to be able to tell you that I love you over and over again.

You left a lasting impression on everyone that you ever met. I've been told many times from various people that you were the most fearless, sweet, gorgeous baby girl ever. I learned so much from you. You taught me to never give up. Keep climbing the couch until you get up top next to mommy. You taught me to not be afraid of anything. Run straight into the ocean-Don't hesitate. You taught me to enjoy the simple things. Chase the birds around until you catch one. You taught me that love knows no limits. Never, ever, ever let go of the one you love (in your case, Dot).

My sweet sweet baby...as the days go on I remember small things here and there that I miss the most.

*I taught you to give kisses. You would kiss me every day when I dropped you off at the babysitters.
*Everything you said was a question. Even the statements. 'Dot?' 'More?' 'Peeeasse?' 'Good?'
*You wanted me to rub your feet with lotion everyday as soon as I got home from work
*You pointed to your nose when my mom said you were nosey.
*For a 18 month old, you could throw like a champ.
*I asked you if you wanted a HurtsDonut and you smacked ME in the face

Although you never learned how to say "I love you mommy" your actions told me, and I think I miss that more than anything. Looking at the videos I have of you, every time you would do something funny to make me laugh, you would look over at me, see me laughing, and do it again. I was always afraid that when work had me away for a long period of time, I would come home and you would forget about me. Ill never forget coming home and seeing the biggest smile on your face as soon as I walked through the door.

Now hunny bunny, I need you to do me a favor. There is a man up there in heaven. He got there a short time after you did. You'll recognize him because I guarantee he is the one with the biggest smile on his face, probably showing off how amazingly cute his baby boy is and how outstandingly beautiful and strong his wife is. This brave man gave his life for our country. I want you to go to him and hold his hand and tell him he is my hero. You two were the most brave people I have ever met. As much joy as you gave me please give to him.

I will never get over the pain of losing you Audrey Rachel. You were the most precious gift that I have ever received. You were the greatest blessing in many peoples lives. I will see you again sweetie, and until then, know that I always always love you.

“Are you upset little friend? Have you been lying awake worrying? Well, don't worry...I'm here. The flood waters will recede, the famine will end, the sun will shine tomorrow, and I will always be here to take care of you"

Forever little hunny bunny,

Mommy